Seperate Corners

Have you ever felt the need to seperate the people in your life into different "sections"? Like with me it tends to be early childhood and church friends, middle school, and now my high school friends and I've just never felt the need to combine all of those different "groups". And its always bugged me when those lines blurred and people crossed over. I don't know if its just me being kind of OCD, or if I'm being selfish or immature but it just almosts makes me want to cry. Is that wrong?

I just have so much history with so many different people, with some of those people its spans 15 years. I feel like as soon as they blur the lines with someone I have a short history with then they'll erase all the history I have with them and I'll forever be replaced by the better, newer one. Maybe its just my insecurities.

I know I've never been in love, but I have loved some friends deeply and I just feel as if the dear and cherishable memory I once had with this person will be forgotten. and yes, I'm actually crying right now, stupid right? I feel like such a selfish baby, but I just can't help. I hate that such close relationships I've had have been lost and replaced forever.

I'm watching Say Anything right now as I go to bed, maybe that will make me feel better. I just can't stop thinking about all this stuff all the time! brain overload.....