Rampage

I have anger issues. I always have and I've always had trouble dealing with them. Alot of times I play them off as a tough exterior, but its not, its anger. Because actually I'm a pretty sensitive person, I hate to admit that. Tonight I got into an argument with my parents and brother. I yelled uneccesary things out of anger. Which is what I tend to do. My mom later asks me why. We go through all the things you'd think of. God. Insecurity. Depression. And alot of it was true. I deal with things through anger alot of times. and when I get angry like that I tend to shove it down and hold it in until the times like tonight when it just explodes and I go on a hedious rampage where I just yell and cry and say anything till I can't breathe anymore. I don't want to be a helpless person, but right now thats what I feel like. Which makes me even angrier. I hate feeling like this. But I think hopefully I'll be getting help soon. No, I'm not crazy or emotionally disturbed or anything like that. I just have no other way to let go of things and get things out. Which I feel is why I started this. Maybe by writing what I feel I can get it out there and people can even help me with some of it.

Thank you for reading....