Saturday, February 27, 2010

I could use some help

For the past few days I've been in one of my funks, however this is a really bad one. I haven't wanted to talk to anyone other than my mom, I've been in bed for the majority of the last 2 days, I've watched 2 tv series, eatten lots of chocolate pudding and unsweet tea, and I've slept terribly, and when I do sleep I have horrible dreams where I'm alone or being tortured with spiders. I sound pretty messed up, right?
Well I'm not really, I promise. I'm just in a "funk". For those of you who don't know what a funk is, its a period on time ranging from a few hours to a week at tops, but during this time I'm in a foul mood where I have absolutely no motivation and I get slightly paranoid. Most of the time I'm out of these funks within a few good talks with my mom or a friend, but this one is just stubborn.
I have my predictions as to where my moods stem from and I think this one is a combination of frustration from a stressful due date week(I had a first draft for an article and a column for the telegraph due this week, and a paper due), I need to read Heart of Darkness and I have just had so much going on, or atleast I thought so. I was supposed to go to Atlanta today with some friends, but they ended up not going and I think I was kind of uninvited anyways, so I think that was like the last straw. I just let the terrible mood sink in and I sulked around and spat at everyone with one word answers who tried to talk to me, giving them looks of warning, desperately trying to let them on to what a b***h I was being. I even ended up coming home from school on Friday, because I just couldn't put up with anything or anyone, and I didn't want to start a fight with someone.
I've also been super behind on reading my favorite blogs and commenting, but I'm not letting myself feel bad about it, because blogging is something I usually enjoy, but I know that if I'm still doing it but I'm not enjoying it, then I should stop for a while, and thats what I did this week, and now I'm better and I'm hopefully back for a while.

But don't think that I've been in a super depressive state since I last posted, because I haven't. I actually was in a great mood last weekend. I met JACK MCBRAYER, from 30 Rock and I rode in a car with him and I got all my birthday thank you notes sent out and all of my blog swap gifts sent out, now I just need to write my letter to Tanja, my pen pal parter in Nicoles pen pal project. I'm absolutely so excited about this, its so new and something I've never done before! I hope to get my letter out this week, but I want it to be perfect. I also recieved the cutest earrings ever from Kristen, there these cute little button/flower earrings and I've worn them everyday this week. People keep commenting on them and I love it, because they're just so unique. I hope everyone finishes out their weekend well, and that its not too cold where you are. Now I'm back to my bed for the rest of the weekend, where I will watch way too much Friday Night Lights and do none of the things I need to do.

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