Clarity

Actually clarity might be the farthest thing from where I am right now, other than the fact that I'm listening to the John Mayer song of the same name. I have so much stuff. Stuff as in: college, majors, career, nonexistent love life, friends, pathetic birthday, prom, college, choices, and college. And did I mention COLLEGE! I have voice every Thursday and my teacher keeps telling me that he wishes I had come to him earlier, because if I had I would probably be going to somewhere like NYU in the fall, because of my voice. Personally, I don't think I'm very good, I enjoy it, but opera and classical singing to me is just a hobby, but as soon as he mentioned NY, I perked up. Seriously though, since I was like 7 I've wanted to live in New York. And recently I've been analyzing my "strengths" and I love to write, I do love singing and children, physcology and cooking. So I mean, at least its narrowed down to like 5. I'd love to eventually have an internship with a magazine like seventeen, to see if publication is something I'd like to do, and food network(so awesome). But just all of these choices being offered to me at once is ridiculously overwhelming. I know that it will all work itself out, but for now its just stressful to know that I don't know what I'll be doing with my life in the near future.
However, right now I'm also stressed because I'm not doing anything for my birthday, which makes me sad, and I'm also still having these ridiculously confusing dreams that I swear are influencing my thinking in real life. What is my self conscious trying to tell me here!? Is it normal to have a continuous theme to dreams, like with particular people(certain person actually)and for that dream occurrence to influence your daily thinking's. I'd love to know!